L o v e . is . a . V E R B ;

a beautiful dream

2009-11-13T13:25:19Z

Note: I don't normally post Michael/Verchiel stuff because I write it for myself, but I just love the bejesus out of this scene and I want to post it somewhere. I want to write their story eventually. Whenever the pieces all come together.

“I wonder what makes people so different from each other.” Verchiel mused aloud, tucking a strand of hair behind her ear.

Michael leaned back onto his palms and looked up at the sky as he thought about what she said. “That’s a difficult question to answer.”

The female angel rested her head on her crossed arms and looked at Michael, “We all want to love and be loved, right? I feel like people are more similar than they realize.” She smiled softly at her companion, “We’re all connected, so we shouldn’t feel so lonely.”

He laughed at her words, his eyes crinkling up in half moons as he reached over and ruffled her hair affectionately. He ignored the glare she gave him as he spoke, “Sometimes we forget the more obvious things in life. But that’s why you’re here, right? To beat people over the head with the reminder stick.”

He chuckled again as Verchiel shook her head. Her laughter joined with his though, even though she tried to hide it.

“Asshole.” She muttered toward him, a half grin on her face.

Everything went quiet. The two angels relaxed into their surroundings, each thinking about similar things even though they did not realize it. It was Verchiel that spoke up first, a sincere look on her face.

“I feel like this is home.” She stated, a serene smile on her face.

Michael’s eyebrows scrunched up at her words, “What? This place?” He motioned to the grassy hills and the beautiful blue sky above him, but Verchiel shook her head. “I don’t think I understand what you’re saying.”

Her cheeks were red as she laughed in an embarrassed manner, “Being with you, doof. That’s what I meant. I feel like this moment is home.” She looked away from him then, burying her face deep into her arms, unable to speak to him while looking into his eyes. Too scared of what she might see. “I feel at peace. Like everything is exactly as it’s supposed to be.”

Verchiel’s smile grew wider when she uttered her last words. Her heart felt full. Michael always made her feel this way. He was the only person she could feel completely and utterly comfortable around, so it was only a matter of time before she blurted the truth out to him. Though she wished she would’ve stated it more eloquently. Less ‘bumbling idiot’ and more ‘sophisticated angel type’ would have been nice.

There was a shifting noise as something warm settled next to her. She turned toward the source, but quickly drowned in Michael’s intense gaze.

She smiled nervously at him, “What?”

He leaned forward and kissed her. It was hesitant, but the sparks were instant. It felt like the strength of the magnet that had always connected them was now quadrupled, pulling their bodies together until they could not figure out where one began and the other ended.

Michael leaned over her, gently pushing her into the soft grass, his lips insistent yet gentle. Nervous, shaky fingers reached up to tangle in the mess of dark hair on his head as Verchiel innocently pushing herself up toward him. She wanted to feel every inch of him against her. The urge to submerge herself in his very being was so strong that it terrified her. What good would come of merging two people into one? She did not understand her own instincts, but she still did not try to fight them.

“Michael.” She whispered his name against his lips before he pulled them away from her. There was a desperate whimper that she did not mean to let out.

He looked down at her then, his eyes dilated so widely until all that was left was the tiniest sliver of iris. The only time Michael looked this wild was on the battlefield. Why did kissing her turn him into a mad man? She did not get it.

“Verchiel.” He sighed her name, his hair covering his eyes as he leaned his head down.

That was when she noticed he was shaking a bit. She curled her arms around him and pulled him down toward her, his arms giving out as she did so. There was a shocked look on his face as this happened, but he did not complain when she held him to her, a look of bliss on her face.

“Don’t say a word.” She whispered, her fingers drifting lazily through his coal locks.

She knew that neither of them knew what to say. Neither of them knew how to explain what they were feeling and deep down, both of them realized that words were useless. So instead of conveying what she felt with words, she curled herself around him protectively and did all that she could to make him feel safe and comfortable. Michael buried his face in her chest, every part of his body relaxing as he lay with her. He understood what she spoke of home. It would have been a complete and utter lie if he denied the way that she made him feel.

Why did they have to define what they shared? He didn’t think that it could be defined, honestly. It was something that felt right though. Like this was what he had looked for for so long. They never needed to speak of what they were feeling anyways. Somehow, the other always knew. This wordless communication was exactly why they were a deadly team on the battlefield and it was the main reason that he chose Verchiel as his second in command. No one else knew how to anticipate his moves, but she was always one step ahead of him.

The girl below him began to hum softly. It was a song that sounded familiar, even though it was his first time hearing it. He joined in the humming, quietly. Hesitantly. She smiled at him and leaned down so she could kiss the top of his head, only causing him to relax even more.

I don’t think I’ll ever feel lonely with you beside me, he thought as he relaxed.

Maybe people really were connected after all. Every last one of them. Verchiel was certainly convincing.

Bed.

this is what happens...

2008-09-13T03:02:53Z

This is what happens when you throw three crazy sisters into a small room and leave them alone for a night:

First of all, here are pictures of us normally so you don't think we actually look like this IRL. LOL.

Smam; 21

Crista; 26

Erin; 29

Now for the MUSTACHES!! (it started with me grabbing a pen and just doodling a mustache on myself, but then crista and erin whipped out the eyeliner pencils and shit. it was hilarious)

Smam

Crista

Erin

I LOVE MY SISTERS. XD

kyoujaku @ 2006-12-15T02:54:00

2006-12-15T07:54:14Z

This journal is Locked and invite only. Unless you ask nicely. Then I might reconsider. :P

. z o d i a c .
(Chart from astro.com & information from cafeastrology.com!)

Sun in Cancer

Sun in Cancer natives have a strong survival instinct. They are protective of those they care about, and of themselves too. They are often quite reticent about sharing their inner selves to the rest of the world, and are often caught up in reminisce.

Cancers have a reputation for moodiness, although this trait is most evident when the Moon is in Cancer. Cancer needs roots. They resist change to an extent, and concern themselves about being secure and safe in most everything they do.

Cancers can be quite intrigued by objects with history attached to them — antiques, photos, souvenirs, and the like.

Cancer is a very sensitive sign, and they don't always appreciate it when you are blunt with them. Their reactions to hurt will depend on how thick a shell they have developed. Most Cancers react by withdrawing or retreating. Some have developed an ability to manipulate others to get what they want. They avoid direct confrontations almost as a rule.

Cancers are, in fact, quite yielding and soft when you have them in the right mood. They are one of the more hospitable signs of the zodiac. Sure, they can be touchy and indirect, but they are also very dependable, caring souls.

Libra Ascendant

Everybody seems to like Libra Ascendant natives. They just come across as nice, pleasant, and fair. Look a little closer at their lives, and these nice people may have had quite a few problems in their relationships. Some of them have had a string of relationships, and it can be hard to imagine why! These natives attract others to them effortlessly. Besides, they simply don't know what to do with themselves without a significant other.

Libra rising generally appear to be smoothing everything over. They have charming smiles, a gentle approach with others, and an easygoing image. Even if they were not endowed with good looks, they are attractive. Most pay a lot of attention to their personal appearance -- the colors they wear, their hair, the way they walk.

Libra rising people can be enormously persuasive, although they will almost always use a "soft sell" approach when they want to win others over, which is all of the time! A tendency to pass the buck and keep up that "nice guy/gal" image are their worst qualities. However, they can make excellent mediators and will generally be the first to accommodate you.

Libra rising natives are usually attracted to competent, active partners. Their relationships are often characterized by bickering or competitiveness until they learn to drop their sweet image once in a while and to stop blaming their partners for everything that goes wrong.

Moon in Sagittarius

More than anything, Lunar Sagittarians have a need for personal freedom and space. They are extraordinarily happy and easygoing folk, as long as they don't feel caged in or cooped up.

Lunar Sagittarians have a simultaneous need for activity. Meeting new people, going out in the world, and travel are all important to their sense of well-being. They love open spaces, and, in their homes, a roomy and bright environment.

There's a bit of a teacher in Moon in Sagittarius, and definitely a helpful spirit. They easily forget appointments and the like, and some are even considered irresponsible. However, it is hard to stay angry at a Lunar Sagittarian! They are so cheerful and upbeat, and their optimism is catchy.

Many people with this position are outdoorsy types. At the very least, they have a great love for friendly competition.

When the going gets tough, these people run away. They don't like to be caught up in routine for too long, and they simply need to escape.

There's a blind faith in Lunar Sagittarians that is admirable. They simply believe that everything will work out. Not much for making detailed plans, people with Moon in Sagittarius prefer to wing it. They're very adaptable and generally on the go.

Mercury in Cancer

These people communicate with feeling, conveying a sensitive, withdrawn, and thoughtful nature to the people they interact with. If this is the only personal planet in Cancer in their chart, they may come across as more personal and sensitive than they actually are.

No matter how free-spirited the rest of their natal charts may be, Mercury in Cancer people can be very subjective and personal, or they opt not to talk at all. They are slow to respond at times, giving others the impression that they are deep thinkers. They probably are just that. Cancer is a meditative and reflective sign. Still, Mercury in Cancer people are much faster at forming opinions and making decisions than they appear. Because they listen so well to others, this speed is not obvious.

You can bet that Mercury in Cancer natives will remember almost anything — from their own past, to your conversation two months ago. You might notice their memory is a little skewed in the direction of emotion. The truth is, these people remember the mood surrounding all the moments they have stored in their memory. This is because they "feel you out" when you are talking to them. The words are not as important to them as the emotions behind them.

Cancer communicators come across as gentle, intuitive, and sentimental. Sometimes, they can appear quite defensive, as they can take things quite personally. They make you feel very warm and protected. Sometimes it is in their voice (solid yet soothing); and often it is in the message they are giving. Sometimes Cancer communicators can come across as if they are hiding something, which can get them into more trouble than they perhaps deserve.

Mercury in Cancer retains a lot of information, and learns best when they feel emotionally balanced. They prefer to focus their concentration on subjects, and approach problems in a step-by-step manner, "feeling out" an answer. This position gives the gift of rhythm and beat.

No matter what their Sun sign (and it can only be Gemini, Cancer, or Leo), Cancer communicators seem to have feelers. They pick up people's emotions in conversations. They are the best listeners of all the signs. In fact, it is extraordinarily easy for them to get "lost" in the other person's expression and opinion. For a while, they can almost lose their own opinions and completely step into the other's shoes.

You can count on Mercury in Cancer to come up with information, culled from their outstanding memory, that others have long forgotten.

Cancer communicators' style is to avoid arguments. But, make no mistake about it, they can provoke arguments easily. They do this in a subtle manner, then get hurt when others argue with them.

Mercury in Cancer is generally attracted to poetry, archaic language, expressions of yesteryear, and the like. Because they are so aware of others' emotions, they can be somewhat diplomatic in their dealings with people.

These people appear to take their time when they make a decision, and even when they form an opinion. They need to step away from others, and be alone with themselves to explore all that they have absorbed. They ask for time to stew over new information. They are impressionable, and the smart ones know it. Withdrawing into themselves helps them to discriminate.

These people can get frustrated with facts-only thinking processes. They also dislike distractions when they are talking or thinking. They need to focus on the matter at hand in order to come up with the best solutions to problems.

Mercury in Cancer can be very effective speakers and writers, especially if they have Leo or Gemini Suns. Their ability to "feel out" their audience is extraordinary. Also, they are able to present things concisely, yet powerfully.

If your Mercury is in Aries or Libra, you may find some of your conversations with Mercury in Cancer natives are frustrating. (The feeling is mutual, by the way). Aries communicators get impatient with Cancer's slowness and indirect communication, while Libra communicators wonder why Cancer always seems to personalize what they say to the point of appearing like they have funnel vision. This latter is not always the case — Cancer communicators simply prefer to speak about the matter at hand, you and them, and not the rest of the world as Libra tends to do. Likewise, Mercury in Cancer can find Aries communicators rather brusque, and Libra communicators maddeningly detached or other-oriented.

Favorite expression: "I feel..."

Venus in Cancer

Love for Venus in Cancer is best when it is committed and rather predictable. These people are sensitive in love, even if their Sun sign is the more playful and outgoing signs of Gemini or Leo. You may even say their egos are a little underdeveloped when it comes to love, but they have a lot to give in return: namely, security, comfort, and care.

Venus in Cancer men and women show their love by caring for you. They pay more attention to your feelings than your words, and observe you rather carefully. They want a safe, solid relationship. They can be a little moody in love, and some go so far as giving silent treatments and engaging in pouting routines to get attention from their mate. They are turned off by anything impersonal, and too much rationalizing leaves them cold. They are not afraid of the emotional element of love (even if they have a Gemini Sun and appear flighty in other areas of life), but confrontations can be a little scary. Still, these lovers are always worried they'll be left high and dry. If you've hurt them, they'll have a hard time forgetting. Every so often, they'll retreat into themselves (not unlike a Crab), and it can be difficult to pull them out. This is when they use their extraordinary "nursing" abilities on themselves, instead of you...and you simply don't want that!

Pleasing Venus in Cancer involves lots of snuggling and sentimentality. Recognize their attachments to their family and home. Help them to feel confident with you—when they are fearful of being rejected, they can resort to some frustrating tactics to find out just how loved they are. Think about how a crab (the symbol of Cancer) moves towards its goal, and you will get a fair idea of Venus in Cancer's approach. Do your best to make them feel secure and cared for, and you will be rewarded with a patient, dependable, and loving mate.

Libra Ascendant w/ Cancer in Venus

Your ruling planet, Venus, is in the nurturing, devoted, sympathetic sign of Cancer, suggesting that you have a gentleness and sensitivity towards others that is remarkable. You have a feeling for children or the childlike, vulnerable side of people, and this tender feeling and care is your particular gift to life. At times you may be too "other-oriented", neglecting yourself for others' sake or allowing more assertive, dominant or needy individuals to take too much from you. (story of my motherfucking life) Finding "the middle way" regarding marriage partners and children is essential to your unfoldment.

Mars in Leo

This position of Mars gives a drive for significance. Mars in Leo individuals possess a strong need to create in some way—and they are determined that their lives have not only meaning, but significant meaning!

This is a particularly vital position of Mars. Passions run high, and so does desire. There is a strong will that gives these natives much staying power. Though Mars in Leo people will enjoy the pleasures of risk-taking, they generally have a strong sense of reason at the end of the day.

Mars in Leo people often have well-defined ambitions. Rarely will you find a person with Mars in this position who lives life without a true sense of a "calling". They act with authority and power, and their personal magnetism generally endows them with the ability to get what they want.

This is one of the more sexual positions of Mars. While they are rather easy to arouse, their passion is long-standing. Mars in Leo natives enjoy sex more than most, as long as heavy doses of love and romance are part of the package. In partnership, they demand loyalty and admiration.

Impatient with small-mindedness and disloyalty, Mars in Leo natives generally have a strong idealistic streak. They easily get fired up when they feel they've been humiliated, and they defend their high principles with ardor.

Mars in Leo natives act with their heart. Their ego is tied up with their actions, so that most anything they do becomes a source of great pride. Though some are self-righteous and quarrelsome, the more sophisticated people with this position are kindly leaders.